Tania with an I

Proverb

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly."

sigh

Dealing with an ex who has mental problems and is a pathological liar is trying at the best of times.

Feeling Nostalgic

I'm watching 13 Tzameti, a French crime thriller. It has subtitles, but I am really enjoying the French-from-France accents and vocabulary. It reminds me of my mom and my family on her side.

Ya, I'm feeling a bit nostalgic. I can't believe that in a week it will be 4 years since my mother passed away, almost 20 years since my father passed away, and almost 2 years since I last spoke to my grandmother.

Time sure does keep on ticking...

Weather Frustrations

The deck in my backyard has been sanded (finally!), and the new stairs are almost done. The only thing left to do is to stain the whole thing, but that requires a number of dry days so that the stain can be applied and allowed to dry properly. Wouldn't you know it...we've been getting rain every couple of days for the past month or so, and it looks like that pattern will be continuing for the next little while.

I suppose the weather is as good as an excuse as anything to procrastinate. ;-)

Game 5!

Game 5 of the Senators vs Sabres series is today! I'll be heading downtown to watch the game from a patio with a few cold beverages.

What could be better on a warm, sunny day?

Random Thoughts

Yesterday, somebody asked if my cat was pregnant. She's not. Time for a kitty diet!

Three more days until Mother's Day. It's been almost 4 years, but I still miss my mom like crazy.

I am not good at golf. I went to the driving range last week, and found out that I don't have any sort of competent golf swing. I did, however, beat Al at mini-golf! I'll take my small victories wherever I can get them. ;)

Urge to Camp

Looks like next weekend will be warm(ish) and sunny. All of a sudden I have the urge to throw some gear in my car and do some camping. It's been far too long!

There are some great places in and around Ontario, including 1000 Islands, Jones Falls, and Lake Placid (an old favourite place of mine from childhood). Hmm...

Weekend Wrap-Up

I had lunch (a looong lunch) with a good friend on Friday, and it was great to reconnect with her. We hadn't seen each other in months (my fault), and yet we picked up like no time had passed at all. Don't you love when that happens? :)

The rest of the weekend was spent running errands, getting lost on a mini road trip, and being spoiled by a friend with a big piece of ice cream cake.

Now I have to go finish my taxes since I only have hours left...

Priorities, Accountability and Hurt

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about our responsibility towards the people in our lives. What sort of balance should there be between being true to ourselves and not hurting others? If I mess up, and hurt someone...and as a result, something I want to do keeps hurting a friend, do I keep doing it? What if that friend's hurt is a result of their issues, and what I'm doing isn't wrong?

Are we ultimately accountable to ourselves, or the people in our lives?

Should living my life in the exact way I want to live it take priority over hurting someone I care about? If we aren't true to ourselves, can we be any good to our loved ones, or is it all about balance?

I seem to have lots of questions, but am lacking in the answers department. Nothing new there... ;)

This Little Piggy Finally Saw the Sun!

Don't you hate lose-lose situations?

On another note..with brilliant weather this weekend, the sandals have been brought out. My toes are finally free from those pesky socks and shoes. Let's hear it for foot freedom! :P

Sucky Tuesday

I heard from the vet today, and it turns out that my poor kitty has cancer. :( There's a medication to try, and we'll know within a few days if it will have any effect.

Another migraine for me today. When it rains, it pours!

Poor Samantha

I took my 22-year old cat into the vet today because she hasn't been feeling well lately. She keeps losing weight, is dehydrated, and howls for no (apparent) reason about 15 times a day. I mentally prepared myself to put her down today, but it didn't happen. It's either her kidneys (in which case nothing can be done) or her thyroid (in which case something can be done, but it might not be viable given her age and damage already done).

They took blood and I'll get the results tomorrow afternoon. Then it's decision time. Do I put her down right away, or try to give her a bit more time? How much stress is it fair to put on her (with treatments, vet visits, etc.) for a bit more time? If I have her put down, do I choose to be with her or let them do it without me there?

These are not decisions that I want to make, but have no choice. This is one of those times that I wish I could trade my 'responsible adult' card in for a 'carefree child' card.

Goodbye Corrie, Hello Playoffs!

The weather is starting to warm up, and I noticed the first signs of spring flowers in the garden, but what I'm really excited about is hockey season! Oh sure, there's a downside - Coronation Street will no longer be on tv in the evenings, but thanks to my PVR, I won't miss a minute.

Instead, I'll get to spend my evenings watching hockey! I've got a good feeling about the Ottawa Sens this year. I know I say that every year, but this year I really mean it.

I'm also rooting for the Detroit Red Wings (my long-time favourite team, which has just recently been nudged out by the Sens) and the Vancouver Canucks.

The Sens won last night, as did the Canucks (in OT). The playoffs are off to a good start!

Neglected Blog

My poor, neglected blog. I don't give you the attention you were used to, and it's in part because I've been seeing my facebook account behind your back. Oh sure, I believed that I could juggle both, that neither would suffer from my time with the other...but for you, my faithful and long-standing blog, it just wasn't so.

Give me another chance! I'll post again, even with pictures on occasion! I'll work to revitalise our relationship, or mercifully put you out of your misery if I find I can't give you the attention you deserve. Let's see if we can rekindle the love...

The Illusion of Perfection

The story of Halle Berry's suicide attempt is back in the news, and it has reminded me that perfection is really just an illusion. She's beautiful, talented, and looked to the outside world like a woman who had it all, and yet she wasn't immune to depression or suicidal thoughts.

It's easy to get caught up in superficial things (looks, possessions, etc.), but real happiness can only come (or not come) from within. That's my corny thought of the day...